The Good List.
The last few days felt… heavy, kind of sad. Today feels a little bit lighter, and I am so grateful for that. Sending you happy thoughts, wherever you are. Here are some things I’m grateful for today…
FRESH BREAD! Can we just take a minute to admire the beautiful loaf pictured above? A friend brought over the sweetest care package today that included fresh bread, cookies, sourdough starter, and all the necessary ingredients for us to make more of this bread for weeks to come. The thoughtful gesture basically made my week. Just insanely kind.
Sunshine & flowers! It’s been beautiful in San Francisco this week. Sunny & 70s these past few days, which is insanely helpful as we all try to cope with the darkness of the news. I took off the sweatpants I’ve been wearing for the past month (I mean, I washed them, don’t worry… but still) and changed into a jumpsuit! It’s basically as comfortable as sweats, but I was surprised by how much better it made me feel to get “dressed”. I put my hair up and put sunglasses on and walked outside and felt the sun on my cheeks and it all was just delightful. I felt human again!
Phone calls. Ok people, I have a confession. I am so tired of Zoom. It feels like a punishment to me. I find it hard to look at the screen for so long, more tiring than normal to try to follow a conversation, and it just kind of reminds me that I wish I were with all these people IRL… and I’m just not. A friend sent me this twitter thread that helped me better understand why Zoom feels so exhausting sometimes. “It’s easier being in each other’s presence, or in each other’s absence, than in the constant presence of each other’s absence.” Interesting, huh? Anyway, I’ve kind of just realized that video calls feel like work to me, but a phone call with someone I love paired with a nice socially distance walk? That’s more my speed for sure, and it helps ease the persistent feeling of loneliness that’s been lurking around this extrovert.
Outdoor furniture. Okay, this one is petty AF but I’m not going to apologize because it’s honestly the first thing I’ve looked forward to in a long time. One of the things that made us fall in love with our current apartment was our lovely little balcony, but decorating an apartment is weirdly tiring & we haven’t done much with the outdoor space since we moved in. I lost a lot of steam for home projects when I got sick, but I somehow had just enough energy to order a little outdoor table and chair set online. The table came today, and the chairs are coming soon, and I can’t wait to get a set up where we can spend a little bit more time actually taking advantage of our balcony.
Wine! I’m finally starting to physically feel almost normal, normal enough that I’m having a glass of wine as I drink this. Wow. Wine is great. And one of my girlfriends scheduled a wine night (over Zoom, obvi, because duh) for us for this Friday, and as much as I hate Zoom… Wine & friends? You know I’m already looking forward to it. Anything that gives me something to look forward to, you know? I’ll take it.